Updates and Other Crazy Realizations

I feel like slapping myself for getting another thought of creating another blog just for my “personal logs”. As if this blog wasn’t personal enough and AS IF I DON’T HAVE TOO MANY BLOGS ALREADY! Sometimes I make myself laugh and I drive myself crazy for all the unnecessary reasons. Too much anxiety, too many impulse buys, crazy fangirling, so many emotions, fickleness, hypochondriac tendencies. The list just goes on.

I just realized I haven’t been consistently logging on Day One as well. My last entry was about my PCOS diagnosis. Nope, I have not started pills yet because I’m scared as fuck about mood swings and getting depressed and gaining a shitload more weight so I feel like I have to go back to the doctor again. If I don’t get my period within a month again then FINE I will start taking it.

This is such a contrast to my previous post about all things pretty and makeup. Something I have to control as well. I’ve been hoarding cosmetics the past few months that my stash has visibly increased. Giving myself a makeup ban for the month of September because I need it. I need mo’ monies. My Seoul, Singapore and Malaysia (that I have NOT blogged about!) trips this year sorta really kinda drained my finances. It’s like I’m back to ground zero with my savings. I can do this.

There are a few things I still want to talk about but feel like I need to put a brake on my overwhelming emotions for now. Vinyasa class made me really calm earlier tonight but now I feel like this is stemming from a round of Thought Catalog posts on my Twitter feed. I hate that site. Also, I hate Forty Days of Dating that’s making me question things about love and relationships and men-women dynamics. As if I need more of that?! Clearly I have too many feels.

3 Comments

  1. Umi
    August 26, 2013

    Hi there! 🙂

    I have PCOS as well and I’ve started taking pills when I was 15. Don’t be scared, I know it sounds overwhelming, but in all honesty, taking pills doesn’t make you more moody and depressed. Those traits are more of a personality thing, but you may feel extra ordinarily sensitive at some point. You just have to control it, trust me. 🙂

    As for gaining weight, YES, you will gain weight, but you could always exercise regularly and eat healthy to keep yourself from bloating up (which I did not do).

    Anyway, everything would be fine. Don’t worry. 🙂

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    1. Justine
      August 26, 2013

      Thank you for the comment! I was so overwhelmed when I got PCOS and I feel bad now because I only took Provera but never proceeded with the pills. I got too scared.

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      1. Umi
        August 28, 2013

        Don’t worry much. Everything would work out fine. 🙂 Hope you’re doing better now!

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