I wish I had a solid hobby that I can be proud of. I think I’ve taken up almost all the cliche ones but none of them really stuck because of my lack of dedication and willpower. I think it comes with being a Gemini and getting easily bored with things and the constant search for something new. I sing, I play guitar and have been playing ever since I was 11 but I’ve never really advanced. There was a point in my life where I could play these awesome riffs and chords but due to lack of practice I became all rusty again. I think I’ve taken a lot of musical lessons to realize that I’m not even half good at them. I’ve taken up drums, keyboard, I read musical notes but that’s all there is to it. I then discovered Photoshop and loved it, I was into webdesign and coding at one point then suddenly one day I looked at all the codes and it gave me a headache. Even though I loved it, I thought it wasn’t worth it due to all the frustration.
Then there was the lomography hype, I got myself an ActionSampler with the hopes of pursuing a hobby in the analog world but in the end I figured it was a hobby which needed cultivation and commitment, not to mention it burnt holes in my pockets so that kind of took a backseat too. I guess I’m at this point in my life where I’m looking for something that I can really stick my mind to, be it a hobby or a relationship or just something which makes me happy. When I get into these things I always tend to doubt myself because I subconsciously compare myself with the better ones and then my insecurity gets the best of me.
The problem with me is, I wanna be good at everything. Obviously I know that’ s not possible, if I can’t stick to one thing how am I supposed to be good at everything else right? Perseverance ultimately leads to perfection, and perseverance hasn’t always been my strongest suit (something I definitely need to improve). I wish one day I can find something I can be extremely proud of for putting my heart and soul into, and get into it full time.
I don’t know why but I haven’t been watching movies lately. I always suck when it comes to blockbusters and such because I usually wait until the hype of the movie dies down before I watch it. I also prefer watching movies which are about 1-2 years old unless of course, it’s a movie I’ve been dying to watch beforehand. The problem is, I’ve put off watching so many movies that they’ve all piled up and I haven’t had a chance to watch them at all. Plus when that happens, new movies come out and I put them off again so it’s like a weird cycle. The last movie I watched in the theater this year was Valentine’s Day (IKR) and since then I haven’t gone yet. While I love going to the movies, I prefer watching them in the comfort of my own couch or bed so I love movie nights in. Anyone?
Also the reason why I didn’t relate much to this years’ Oscars. Every year I’m always looking forward to the Oscars but this year it just wasn’t the same. I have hundreds of DVDs at home lying around waiting to be watched and since I have a job now, I don’t know when the perfect time is to just sit down and watch. The next big question is, what movie do I watch first? I have so many choices.. I guess I’m gonna figure this all out–soon.
I just got home from a pretty long day and I’m so happy to be flopped in my bed (and possibly watch Personal Preference–see post below). There are some things going on in my life right now that I don’t really agree to, hopefully these “things” are for the better and will give me a few answers I need in life i.e. where I’m headed, what I’m supposed to do, how do I breakaway and everything in between. I don’t wanna dwell too much on it because I’m trying to practice living in the moment, so let’s just leave it as it is for now.
While on the way home last night with bff to drive Paul & Patrick after hanging out, the four of us got into a conversation about our friendship. I have always called these people “The Core” because I consider these people as my core support system in Jakarta. We were talking about how much we missed hanging out especially since everyone’s so far from each other, or doing their own thing like being in college in another country, in my case venturing into the “real world” (aka corporate slavery). When Patrick’s back from Manila he always talks about how much he misses everything we do and our weekend routines even though life is quite great in the homeland. There was a point where Paul said, “I think we need to find new friends..” To everyone’s agreement I said, “I have lots of new friends but I love this friendship, no one can ever change that.” It’s the irreplaceable kind because as third culture kids our needs and wants are interconnected and when we talk about our challenges, each one of us get each other because there’s that certain bond that comes with it.
It just made me realize how far our friendship has reached. We were around 6-10 years old when we started becoming friends and here we are now 16-22, when we’re together it feels like home. Which always brings me to a thought about my own identity because being a TCK, I’m not really sure where I belong. Does this mean that it triggers my doubt of self-belonging even more? Sometimes I think too much.
After deciding on countless themes and designs for this blog, I finally settled with this one. It’s white, it’s clear, no fuss with just a humble colorful banner like the one above. I named it Infinitely Interesting after an Incubus song called Echo which says:
Could you show me dear
Something I’ve not seen
Something infinitely interesting
It sorta means that I hope with this blog I get to unravel all the interesting things and hopefully share them making it infinitely interesting. I also wanted to find an excuse to quote my favorite band of all time and its amazing lyricist Brandon Boyd and that part of the song just spoke to me.
Today is a pretty chill Saturday, I was supposed to have brunch with my closest high school friends to celebrate our friendship of almost a decade but since one of us couldn’t make it we moved it to another time, hopefully next week. I’ve been friends with these guys for so long and they’re the ones who made me get through most of my high school days, I love them to bits. Also Patrick, one of my good friends who’s studying in Manila right now is also back for vacation in Jakarta so I’m definitely excited for that and can’t wait til we get to hang out again.
I definitely slept in this morning (FUCKYEAH) and woke up just before noon and since there was no clear agenda I just decided to finish up this site and continued to watch Personal Preference, this new K-drama starring Lee Min Ho (of Boys Before Flowers fame, which I never watched). It’s a about a guy who pretends to be gay so that he can live with this girl to get something he really wants. I’m only in the 2nd episode, so I’m not too sure about how the drama unravels but being a Korean dramedy I’m sure the guy and the girl has some crazy moments and end up falling in love.
Ahh, fantasy. We all need a form of escapism right? All things Korean is definitely the way to go for me right now.
I have a BlackBerry Curve/Javelin 8900. For some reason, every time I’m in the office in all its cold and freezing glory my trackball decides to get stuck and doesn’t wanna move up. You know the old school mouse pre-optical version when something would get stuck inside the big trackball causing it to be completely useless? Yeah, that. These past few weeks it’s been irritating the crap out of me but when I’m NOT in the office it works completely fine! (Maybe it’s a sign that I’m not supposed to be a crackberry whore while working ha~!). However this week, it decides to completely eff the heck out. I tried various methods like the minyak kayu putih (Cajuput oil) one where you pour some on cloth and wipe it on your trackball. It would work but the day after it would get stuck again when I’m in the office.
So today(!), I found this method after consulting Father Google, which never fails. Although the video shows that it was done with the Tour, I did it to my phone anyway and probably spent hours (in between work of course–we don’t wanna get fired right) trying it.
The Paper Strip Method for cleaning a BlackBerry
This method worked, although I had to set my frustrations aside when paper bits would get stuck inside (there are still probably some right now) so I used it with a straw. For a while the trackball got COMPLETELY stuck and all my efforts were wasted. Due to my utmost frustration I poured a whole lot of Cajuput oil (see minyak kayu putih reference above) and just rubbed it with my blouse like there was no tomorrow. IT WORKED. My trackball finally works right left up down. I don’t know until long but I hope until forever so I don’t have to spend money on replacement. The bad thing is, I smell like the damn oil and it is NOT sexy. Worth it anyway.. now let’s just hope my trackball doesn’t go mucking up again.
My office cubicle today. You know that green bottle you see on the left? I bought that especially for my trackball. Whoever thought of that method is pretty much a little genius. It is widely recommended by BlackBerry users around Indonesia because it’s a tried, tested and proven. The duration of the fix is questionable though…