FEELING I’m now in my room now with A/C on full blast, but was feeling ridiculously annoyed a while ago because of tonight’s humidity. I have a feeling rain’s gonna just pour in a few hours hitting us hard. That feeling when you feel fresh after shower but start sweating as soon as your change into your new clothes? I hate it. The evening too!
WATCHING I watched 2 no-brainer movies on Netflix today, both were meh really but still had enjoyable moments.
LISTENING I was reading about this old chat with a close friend from high school and came across this gem (LOOOOL) because he said it reminded him of me. I listen to this song about once a year and each time I still know the words to the song 1000000%. No shame.
READING Life by Lu Yao. I’m not really sure how this ended up in my Kindle but I just started a few chapters this week after finishing Kevin Kwan’s Sex & Vanity (which wasn’t as great as the Crazy Rich Asians trilogy, but still an enjoyable read). With this pandemic and having little agency of a social life, that means I can hopefully complete or even beat my Goodreads Reading Challenge this year.
EATING Nothing right now, but for dinner my close friend who runs TheThursdayGrill delivered me some yummy bbq!
THINKING It’s nice to write about not having any conflicting thoughts right now—at least not one that’s bothering me so much, but I have been thinking about this one person subconsciously, I don’t know how to explain it. The just-running-through-my-head kind of thoughts.
HOPING For this pandemic to keep slowing down and hopefully eradicate itself from this world. We’re finally adjusting to the ~new normal~ of things, and it’s been feeling like a slow burn. I’m just looking forward to when we can finally freely travel and live life as we should.
FEELING Weird and a little disoriented. It’s approaching 3 months since quarantine announcement and I can’t believe it’s been that long and we got through all that. At the same time, cases in Cebu don’t seem to be decreasing yet, so how long are we going to be in this state? The economy isn’t looking great. Our government is in shambles, plus there’s so much wrong in the world. I just finished 10 days of Duphaston and haven’t been meditating lately, so I feel like all these weird feelings needed an outlet.
WATCHING I was about to do a rewatch of That Awkward Moment on Netflix before writing this entry. I don’t know if I’m doing to continue after this but I’d like to. After The King: Eternal Monarch wrapped up (mixed feelings about this drama), I just recently started with Hospital Playlist because of great reviews. It’s my first medical K-drama, and I can say it’s pretty worth it. Also, I’ve never watched this much K-drama my whole life. That’s what quarantine does to you.
LISTENING To the demons in my head. Go. Away.
READING Sad to say my book reading streak has not been followed in the last few months. I’m thinking about picking up a book to read this coming week. Just a few days ago I was thinking about the potential adaptation of The Little Life into the small or big screen and came across this article on NYT about how it was adapted into a stage play in Amsterdam. It’s something I would definitely be interested in, but will I have the guts to watch it? I’m not so sure anymore.
EATING My pre-bedtime vitamins and supplements, as I’m currently in bed getting ready to sleep.
THINKING I did my very first livestream on our Animal Crossing Cebu FB group earlier! It was definitely fun and already starting to think about ways where I can hold another one and what “event” it’ll be this time. Never thought I’d come to this but there are many things this quarantine has made me do, like watching back to back K-dramas (WHO AM I?).
HOPING Pretty much the same as my last one. It’s still not safe to be out there, to do the regular things and going back to the usual. The new normal is definitely a way of life now. Plus the hard-hitting reality magnifies even more when people you actually know and your friends are hit with the virus. I just hope we will all get out of this okay.
I feel like I need to type out that age in words to fully grasp that I’ve actually turned a year older in this crazy, crazy year. It’s now mid-June and almost a month since my birthday, but 2020 still feels like that continuous fog that’s just hanging over you with no signs of going away.
My birthday consisted of being very busy at work, but surprised with a lot of messages and sweet gestures from friends who either sent me food, goodies, gifts, and an Animal Crossing birthday party to wrap it up.
Before getting Animal Crossing, I was having anxiety attacks left and right about the whole situation and the nastiness that’s been affecting the world, and I’m extremely grateful to have had the resources to get both the Switch and the game so quickly. Thanks to this game, my family, my work, and friends offline and especially online, I don’t think I would have “survived” this quarantine in this current mental state of still being okay.
Last week I left my area for the first time since March. I went shopping with friends since the city started to lift some restrictions and closures. I felt like a kid going to Disneyland for the first time, but leaving that Disneyland feeling very paranoid about things. Did I touch anything unsafe? My throat is itchy do I have it now?
Needless to say, it’s still very much unsafe to move around anywhere. My one wish for my birthday? For everything to be okay again.
FEELING Honestly? Like I’m about to have another anxiety attack any minute. I had 2 major ones last week but none yet after that, thank goodness. Otherwise, I’ve been feeling pretty okay and trying to stay as positive as I can. I’ve been exercising, reading books, meditating, doing yoga.. activities that I’ve been putting off because of how every day life gets so busy.
WATCHING I was watching a rerun of New Moon on HBO Family while eating my dinner and my mom was saying how it was totally a downer so we ended up watching this documentary in Indonesian on Arirang. It was about a social enterprise that Koreans built in Jakarta to help kids on the street gain skills for jobs in the city to better the society.
LISTENING I just discovered this remix today and totally loving it.. then I realize is it the one that’s been around on Tiktok so much? Tiktok has seriously changed the way we’ve been feeling songs.
After I Do by Taylor Jenkins Reid. I’ve been having a good streak with reading so far, and it was one of my goals for the year—see blog post below. I didn’t think I would be able to catch up on reading because of a current world pandemic but alas, that’s where we’re at.
EATING Carrot walnut cake with amazing cream cheese frosting. Thankful that my favorite sweet indulgences in Cebu are still open doing deliveries and pickups.
THINKING About possible things to do this coming week because I don’t have work and it’s supposed to be Easter break / Holy Week. I’m trying to put on a mindset about how I’m supposed to look forward to this holiday week even with this quarantine season going on. Thinking in terms of what I would do if I just got off a full week of busy work and a week-long staycation is waiting for me at home. It’s a challenge, but it helps.
HOPING Ah, a lot. For this COVID situation to go away, for the health and safety of all those affected and the frontliners who are in their aid, for the government to step up, for Cebu to continue to have this streak of no infections (3 days and counting now), and for the world to restore back to its original state.