I’m not sure what’s causing this inner terror that’s bothering me right now but I don’t like it at all. It’s making me lose my subconsciousness and depriving me of being grateful for the little things, which I always try and focus on daily for my mental health. I can’t even enjoy a single K-drama without revisits of this annoying mental clutch. I’ve been so focused on my new job and the unknowingly jarring difference of now getting into the hang of an office life vs the remote life that I lived for a year and a half. That was good for my mental and professional reset after having been in a toxic environment for a while, before the lone wolf life took a toll on me again. This time however, the demons in my head seem to be self-inflicting and I’m not a big fan. I’m always beating myself up for losing control of my and letting anxiety win again. By writing this I hope I at least feel a little better. A part …

I better stop before this gets big bite sized, heh. Til the next!

It’s Friday (DUH)! This week really passed by like a breeze. I guess it helped that Monday was a holiday (yayy Labor Day) and there were a series of events this week that made it all the more faster. They say time flies when you’re having fun, right? On Tuesday, the Philippine Bar Results came out after a grueling 6 months of waiting. I can’t imagine having to take an exam and not knowing the results almost half a year later, especially one that will determine my future. How do y’all do it? Anyway, my closest friend from childhood and my neighbor across the street, Hazel, is now a full-fledged lawyer! It was so funny because I had been patiently waiting for the results to come out the whole day, camping out on twitter search results (my preference of news release) to find out if she had made the cut. Series of updates stated that it would be out before at 11:30. For some weird reason, a little before 11, the school’s fire alarm rang …