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Finding Inspiration, Old and New

I mentioned in my previous blog post that it’s been a little bit challenging trying to go back to my old life. It’s weird because it’s not like I’m getting off from a long period of anything; but the changes I made during that period, whether long or short, I felt were for the better and for something really substantial. I didn’t imagine myself to be back where I started so abruptly. I admit it’s been a little frustrating because it’s making me crawl out of my previous comfort zone and look for new things to be interested in, and that itself is a journey that I’m just starting with.

I’m beginning to find new things that inspire me, or going back to the old habits that I’m totally seeing in a different light. Either way, I’m attempting to list them out here in this blog. We never know, there may be a part ii for this.

Yoga

Yoga has always been my refuge, whether I’m feeling shitty or absolutely elated. It helps me regain my focus back and utilize that 1.5 hours in a day to truly get away and remove myself from whatever I’m going through. It helps me stay grounded, be in the moment, not think about the past or the present or any worries that are in my head, and gets rid of the bad juju and start from scratch. I will forever be grateful that I decided to take that one yoga class 2 years ago.

Pretty blogs and other peoples’ life stories.

I’ve been doing a good amount of blog-hopping (that word is so 2006!) and reading different kinds of blogs, about how other people live their life, or how they choose to portray it through their writing. There’s also great insight and advice on how to deal with situations, setbacks, motivation and even happiness in itself. Everything I’ve come across has been just so positive and introspecting and I really like that positivity is such a major drive with blogging in this “era”. I admit I am a self-absorbed blogger, so genuinely reading about others gives me such a refreshing take on life and seeing it through other people’s eyes.

Writing

This whole writing thing, especially for my blog, is proving to be such a helpful form of escapism. I realized that I haven’t been this motivated to blog or write for a long time now. I am actually motivated to produce something, and see words come to life. I don’t know how long this is going to last, but right now I am making the most of it.

The drive to learn.

The other night I was helping my dad out with an online questionnaire that required analytical and self-evaluation skills and it made me realize something about myself. I should never stop learning. There are many factors that make you forget, like if you’re doing so well in something it makes you feel like you have nothing left to learn anymore but the truth is, learning should never stop. That realization hit me so hard to the point where I kind of want to go back to school. Getting an MBA has always been part of my life plans but since it’s not something that I can acommodate right now financially, I’m looking into getting short courses for things that interest me. We’ll see, and hope that it turns out well.

Having something to look forward to and making things happen.

This has always been the reason for my existence. It fuels me and drives me and I recently learned that it doesn’t just happen by itself and you have to do something about it. At one point I was so disraught because I hated waking up knowing I had nothing to look forward to anymore. The beginning of the year was filled with so many plans and so many events then suddenly, bam, emptiness. Who or what is to blame? Absolutely no one. I then decided to make things happen in order to have something to look forward to. I (keyword: tried to) make mundane things seem exciting, even if it took a lot of effort. I booked a flight to see my friends for a long weekend and put off buying that pretty lipstick so that my excitement doesn’t wane. We all gotta start somewhere, right?

I’m trying to work out a way where I inject more variety into this list but at this point I don’t want to be too ambitious yet. A good challenge should be something that inspires me, but I still have an ounce of fear that’s getting in the way. A good list of goals is something I should be trying to include as well, but like I always say, goals scare the beejeezus out of me because I feel like I’m always setting myself up for failure.. but that’s another different blog post altogether.

On Writing as Therapy

I’ve been blogging since I knew how to use the internet, but I have never thought of myself as a good writer, or good blogger, at the very least. My sister told me last week that I write like a kid, and I actually agreed without harboring ill-feelings. I’m not one to have a wide knowledge of words that I can mix and match to my mind’s content. Sometimes I envy those who are so witty on paper (or on screen) and can translate feelings and emotions into another level of feelings and emotions just by writing. This is why I’m mostly a blog lurker. I don’t usually comment but I ALWAYS read, especially the good ones.

You’ve probably noticed my blogging frequency has increased in the past month. Some say it takes a shitty situation to go back to writing. For me, writing has always been a therapeutic medium where I can express myself (as if I don’t express myself enough) or mask whatever bad thing that’s going on in my head and sugarcoat it so that it doesn’t seem so bad after all. I don’t know if that’s supposed to be a good or bad thing? Either way, it helps.

Going back to my “old life” hasn’t been the smoothest transition like I thought it would be. I had always imagined to be sliding back into my usual routine like riding a bike and coasting to wherever life takes me. It’s proving to be more challenging than I thought and that has bothered me more than I allow it to.. so here I am writing my thoughts away because it’s the only routine that will never lose its familiarity to me.

Mid-Twenties Realizations

I found this entry sitting in my drafts folder, completely forgot about it and now I’m trying to figure out if this was something I wrote on my own or leeched off the internets. It’s been 2 years and I am now 27, but all of it still applies to me. Funny how it says “approaching” mid-twenties when the truth is that I’m past that and actually approaching my thirties. Oh dear.

A few things I learned & realized, now that I’m approaching in my mid-twenties:

  • Yes, people turn 25 27. They live it, and they get over it. So get over it. It’s okay to feel young forever. Age is just a two digit number.
  • Write things down. You never know what you forget.
  • You don’t have to feel guilty or sucky for not having the life your social media friends have. You have your own. And if you wake up each morning healthy, with a roof over your head, food to eat, a job to go to (plus points if you love it), friends & family who care and love you, then you are considered one of the richest people in the world.
  • Indulge. If you make your own money, then you deserve it. Don’t feel guilty for what you spend as long you know your limits.
  • Save some money for a rainy day. You don’t know what’s going to happen in the long run.
  • Don’t waste your time dealing with people who are not worth it. Cherish those who are there for you and be there for them too.
  • What is truly yours, will eventually be yours. And what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.

That’s the extent of what I wrote (yes, I will conclude that I did write it). Pretty refreshing now that I look back on it all, especially since I’m going through something not so great right now. I wonder what I was going through that time to write something like the last point. Piercing through the chest and straight to the heart.

It’s another one of those entries that’s so great to look back to and something I will definitely need to remind myself on a daily basis. Life’s not all flowers and butterflies and I’ve always said this to friends who have a hard time dealing with life’s complexities is that you need to feel this way in order to appreciate the good stuff. And that’s something I need to always remember.

Summer Snaps

Warning: A very photo heavy post of my very eventful summer. It’s been a while since I’ve had a photo-extensive area on my blog and in my attempt to start making things look really pretty, I managed to “conjure” this. It will probably be a while until I have the motivation to upload photos in here so I decided to just make one dump of an entry and put some of the snaps that made my summer. There’s many where these came from, but I can’t put it all. These photos were taken with either an iPhone, a DSLR, and a GoPro.

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