I feel like slapping myself for getting another thought of creating another blog just for my “personal logs”. As if this blog wasn’t personal enough and AS IF I DON’T HAVE TOO MANY BLOGS ALREADY! Sometimes I make myself laugh and I drive myself crazy for all the unnecessary reasons. Too much anxiety, too many impulse buys, crazy fangirling, so many emotions, fickleness, hypochondriac tendencies. The list just goes on.
I just realized I haven’t been consistently logging on Day One as well. My last entry was about my PCOS diagnosis. Nope, I have not started pills yet because I’m scared as fuck about mood swings and getting depressed and gaining a shitload more weight so I feel like I have to go back to the doctor again. If I don’t get my period within a month again then FINE I will start taking it.
This is such a contrast to my previous post about all things pretty and makeup. Something I have to control as well. I’ve been hoarding cosmetics the past few months that my stash has visibly increased. Giving myself a makeup ban for the month of September because I need it. I need mo’ monies. My Seoul, Singapore and Malaysia (that I have NOT blogged about!) trips this year sorta really kinda drained my finances. It’s like I’m back to ground zero with my savings. I can do this.
There are a few things I still want to talk about but feel like I need to put a brake on my overwhelming emotions for now. Vinyasa class made me really calm earlier tonight but now I feel like this is stemming from a round of Thought Catalog posts on my Twitter feed. I hate that site. Also, I hate Forty Days of Dating that’s making me question things about love and relationships and men-women dynamics. As if I need more of that?! Clearly I have too many feels.
Hi there!
I have PCOS as well and I’ve started taking pills when I was 15. Don’t be scared, I know it sounds overwhelming, but in all honesty, taking pills doesn’t make you more moody and depressed. Those traits are more of a personality thing, but you may feel extra ordinarily sensitive at some point. You just have to control it, trust me.
As for gaining weight, YES, you will gain weight, but you could always exercise regularly and eat healthy to keep yourself from bloating up (which I did not do).
Anyway, everything would be fine. Don’t worry.
Thank you for the comment! I was so overwhelmed when I got PCOS and I feel bad now because I only took Provera but never proceeded with the pills. I got too scared.
Don’t worry much. Everything would work out fine.
Hope you’re doing better now!