A little bit better, hopefully? It’s Day 9 of post-op recovery from tonsillectomy and while the previous days have been absolutely torture, I can actually see a bit of light at the end of the tunnel. If you follow my twitter then you would have probably seen my tweets of the same kind below. The past week has been crazy. Tonsillectomy recovery in adults is not for the faint-hearted. I am glad I got to have a little bit of outside R&R this weekend because my family decided to book rooms at a beach resort nearby. After being cooped up in my room for a good 5 days crying in pain, I think I needed a different atmosphere.
I did not imagine day 4-6 to be hurting this much. It’s synonymous to torture. #tonsillectomy
— Justine (@juiceee) July 17, 2015
Other than that, today I found something that had the potential to break me and put me at my lowest. If this were me a month ago, I would have probably flipped and allowed myself to reach rock bottom. Somehow today is a different day and after a good cry to one of my best guy friends, I decided to pull myself up and see things a little bit clearer.
That whatever today’s decision was for myself, I will stick with it and let myself follow through. Just a little push day by day and I should be good, yes?
Going to focus on getting better health-wise, pick up the pieces of my broken heart, improve my career path and power through life. — Justine (@juiceee) July 19, 2015
Step 1: Love yourself. Know your worth. Everything else will follow.
— Justine (@juiceee) July 19, 2015
Milan Kundera’s The Unbearable Lightness of Being. I am happy to report that my reading streak each week has not been broken, yay! This book isn’t in my comfort zone so it’s taking me quite a while to finish it. Usually when that happens I tend to stop in the middle and try to move on to another book, but the characters really draw me in, and the journey of how relationships are formed and maintained are so complex, yet so close to the heart at the same time. It would be such a waste to stop reading it.
Also, I found this “quote” on Facebook from a friend’s profile that struck me like thunder, so I’d like to share it here:
“Not all toxic people are cruel and uncaring. Some of them love us dearly. Most of them have good intentions. Most are toxic to our being simply because their needs and way of existing in the world force us to compromise ourselves and our happiness. They aren’t inherently bad people, but they aren’t the right people for us. And as hard as it is, we have to let them go. As much as you care, you can’t destroy yourself for the sake of someone else. You have to make your well-being a priority. Whether that means breaking up with someone, loving a family member from a distance, letting go of a friend, or removing yourself from a situation that feels painful—you have every right to leave and create a safer space for yourself.”
To my thoughts and trying to counter them when I deviate away from what I’m supposed to be thinking about. This should be a good start!
After about more than a year, I am finally opening myself up to Korean watchables again! I suddenly had the urge and selected I Order You (당신을 주문합니다) on Viki out of pure randomness. Honestly, I don’t know what made me choose it considering Yunho is the main lead and has been known to not be the best at acting (I love you bb, and you can sing, dance, AND perform but acting.. hmm) but the FOOD PORN in this series is glorious. The leading man is a chef and the series is centered around a lot of pretty food so I think that’s what made me initially stay. Once you get through the first 2 episodes the storyline starts to get pretty interesting that I’m actually looking forward to continuing it now.
The Archie reboot! I can’t wait for Issue #2 and getting the comics in my hands. As a kid I was such a follower of the Archie series (I mean, who wasn’t?) and seeing as how this reboot looks great, with a substantial story to follow makes me really look forward to the rest of the series.
THAT I WILL BE FULLY RECOVERED WITHIN THIS WEEK! I cannot wait until I finally conquer this tonsillectomy recovery process! This month has been CRAZY! I wish all the craziness in my heart, mind, throat and body would take a backseat for a while so I can focus on the good in my life, and ultimately stop dwelling on the things that hurt.