I feel like I need to type out that age in words to fully grasp that I’ve actually turned a year older in this crazy, crazy year. It’s now mid-June and almost a month since my birthday, but 2020 still feels like that continuous fog that’s just hanging over you with no signs of going away. My birthday consisted of being very busy at work, but surprised with a lot of messages and sweet gestures from friends who either sent me food, goodies, gifts, and an Animal Crossing birthday party to wrap it up. Before getting Animal Crossing, I was having anxiety attacks left and right about the whole situation and the nastiness that’s been affecting the world, and I’m extremely grateful to have had the resources to get both the Switch and the game so quickly. Thanks to this game, my family, my work, and friends offline and especially online, I don’t think I would have “survived” this quarantine in this current mental state of still being okay. Last week I left my area …

Pre-meditation quarantine edition. FEELINGHonestly? Like I’m about to have another anxiety attack any minute. I had 2 major ones last week but none yet after that, thank goodness. Otherwise, I’ve been feeling pretty okay and trying to stay as positive as I can. I’ve been exercising, reading books, meditating, doing yoga.. activities that I’ve been putting off because of how every day life gets so busy. WATCHINGI was watching a rerun of New Moon on HBO Family while eating my dinner and my mom was saying how it was totally a downer so we ended up watching this documentary in Indonesian on Arirang. It was about a social enterprise that Koreans built in Jakarta to help kids on the street gain skills for jobs in the city to better the society. LISTENINGI just discovered this remix today and totally loving it.. then I realize is it the one that’s been around on Tiktok so much? Tiktok has seriously changed the way we’ve been feeling songs. READING After I Do by Taylor Jenkins Reid. I’ve been …

As many of you probably know, the world is being hit by a pandemic. I can’t believe we’re actually alive to witness such a crazy thing. We’re at the 4th month of the year but it feels like one long hellish January. Bad things after bad things have happened since the start of the year and at this point, the future feels a little bleak. I decided to write something in here because this quarantine is also testing my mental health, if we’re being entirely honest. The past two weeks I was still going to the office for about a few days a week so I’m only really feeling the effects of it now that I am officially housebound. I should be used to it, right? I was a digital nomad for 2 years. The staying at home part is fine, it’s the reduced mobility and having no choice of places to go is what’s been quite stressful. I decided to make a schedule for myself because we still have about 4 weeks left of …

Happy new year! It’s so hard to explain what 2019 was like for me. It seemed like something that just passed by and I had no control over it. If there’s one thing I came to know about myself in the past decade, it’s that I hate having no control. I’ve had 3 weeks off this holiday season—perks of working in a school—with no travel plans. And in beneath all of the adulting things I had to do like visit my doctor, go to the dentist, and score myself a dermatologist that I have to see regularly (more on that soon, or just ask me), the thought of having no routine gave me hella anxiety. Wop wop. Anxiety’s been with me the past decade starting full time in 2009 and as years go by, it’s still my enemy most times. Every year I make strides for it to change, but I admit it still gets left in the back-burner because of other priorities and life in general. This 2020, it’s going to be an uphill …