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Nosy Nose

The reason why I don’t tell my family about my blog is because they are one nosy bunch. It’s not a bad thing, I love them for it and I am also a living proof of the nosiness that runs in our bloodline. This is why I’m active online, I like to know things about people, their lives, I love to read about all sorts of things. That’s just a part of my nosiness. The main point of this topic being raised is that tonight, I finally told my aunt about my blog. She’s currently pursuing a social media career and being more immersed in it than her, I wanted to show her the ropes, how to go about things, blogging this blogging that, what are the most famous blogs right now and the question about my blog came up. I was so reluctant, but figured what the hell, sooner or later people are going to find out about this anyway. You see, I love to blog for myself. Sure.. it’s a given that blogging …

I’m Coming Home (x-post)

I was supposed to be spending Christmas (and New Year) in Jakarta but due to urgent circumstances I had to be asked to go home to Cebu. My sister, mom and I are leaving tonight but my sister and I have different flights and different routes (Singapore for a layover because we couldn’t get the same flights at the last minute). I’m filled with so many mixed emotions right now because even though I initially wanted to go home I already planned out my Christmas vacation with my best friends so now it’s like, a total turnaround again oh well that’s life, just go with the flow. It’s been a while since I “blogged” on tumblr like this I remember used to doing it all the time before, sharing little tidbits about my life which were too short for my blog or too long for my twitter. Picture above was taken last weekend when a few uni friends and their friends had a little (which turned out to be big, lol) Christmas dinner. At least …

On Feelings

When it comes to love and all that stuff, I’ve never been good at “feelings”. I give out advice like I’m so pro at it, but the truth is I can’t communicate it well enough when it comes to myself. It happens to a lot of people and unfortunately I am one of them. So when these “feelings” come and enter my life, I’m at a loss. For words, for emotions, my mind and heart are in knots and I overanalyze, I overthink, and in the end it complicates things not only for myself but for everyone I communicate these “feelings” to. Sometimes I’m too hard on myself.. that I end up losing everything in the end. That’s probably what’s happening right now but other factors are also to blame. Like pride. Every one doesn’t want to lose their pride but there’s something in me that hurts, even when I’m just about to communicate with it, tell myself that it’s okay to feel things, it’s okay when these things happen. But pride overrides itself. I’m …

November Ramble

At this point I can’t even keep up with time anymore. It’s moving too fast. Day in day out, it feels like I have no time for myself! I think I a job with a really flexible time schedule would be great, or something which is has 4-day work week (I wish). In addition to living outside of the city, traffic is an extreme bitch. I’m 22 and I still have no definite life plan. I need to find something which can take me away from fear of the everyday demons that try to attack. I feel like I’m not meant to be in a mundane job but imagining a mobile job seems like it’s stressful. It seems like life is harder when you have a lot of choices in life. Lack of choices would suck too, so where do we go from here? I’m totally rambling my thoughts. By the end of this year I’m going to make it a point to figure out what I really want in life and why it’s so …