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Sleep Deprived

Published by Justine

I’ve been sleep deprived like heck. This started Sunday last week when I just couldn’t lock down a solid sleep cycle. I end up waking up then doing random power naps but in the end it still leaves me with a bad headache. Doesn’t also help that ToM decided to make its monthly visit so I’ve been feeling lethargic.

Mom finally arrived last Wednesday and I couldn’t be anymore happy 🙂 this whole sleep-deprived thing is like just unconsciously making me suffer but it’s not end game. I’ve been going to work and having fun like usual albeit just a little disoriented. I sleep in the morning and wake up in a few hours. It’s gonna take a toll sooner or later but I don’t think I’m going to be able to get it back in the next couple of days at least while my mom’s still here.

Even my eyes hurt right now as I type this. It’s 3:40am and I just had a meal so I definitely can’t sleep yet and I have to be up early later to go out of town and see the whales down South. What a way to start my pre-birthday weekend eh? Here’s to turning 24.

Happy but sleep-deprived.

Motherduck and Workstuff

Published by Justine

I’m so excited because my mom’s coming home in a few days! What a perfect Mother’s Day surprise and a birthday gift rolled into one. I haven’t seen her in 3 months and I’m glad I’m going to see her again even if it’s just a week or two. The person I miss the most in this world though, my sister, will be coming home in about a month too. Cannot wait to be finally reunited with her. I miss that brat too much.

I told myself I’d make a “THINGS TO DO AND BUY WHILE MOM’S HERE” list but I haven’t gotten around to doing it yet. Work has a way of surprising me with good little things (and big things) and it keeps me happily busy. I hope this streak of getting excited with work really sticks. I’m so happy with all that it’s giving me.. of course except for the minor hurdles and dealing with people with different attitudes, so far it’s giving me the exposure I’ve always been wanting to have.

One more thing, here’s this “call center” thing in the Philippines that has somewhat of a misconception. Yes, I work in a company that operates in that nature but it is just a part of it. It’s funny how people totally overlook the other departments. I joined a friend and his friends whom I just met for a quick bite before work today and they were all, “Oh you work in a call center, it must be tiring.” I felt like I didn’t have to prove anything so I didn’t really explain myself how I work in Marketing, develop products, have the most fun and don’t call people for a living. It just so happens that I work in a company with such nature. People can say what they want to say, as long as I’m happy with what I’m doing that’s all that matters. Just wanted to get that out, and anyway people can choose what they want to do for a living, as long as it’s something of moral then go, go, go.

Hate Is a Strong Word

Published by Justine

I hate..

how I’m not reading books anymore.

how I stopped writing on my Moleskine once life started happening, which totally sucks because I promised myself in the beginning of the year that it would be the only New Years’ Resolution I’d complete.

how I can’t fucking fix my clothes right after changing 5x a day coz I can’t decide what to wear.

how I haven’t took out and arranged all the contents of my moving box from Jakarta simply coz I’m “too lazy”.

how I’m nearing quarter life crisis.

how I have really poor financial skills. Save save save!

how I can’t really get rid of my BlackBerry because I have so many family members and friends on it.

how I feel like an idiot whenever I switch from my BlackBerry and iPhone.

how snobbish I feel and sound writing those 2 statements above.

how I can’t even cook up a decent blog post despite so many things going on in my mind.

how my (irrational) fears still keep me from doing the things I really want to do. This one hits the most.

But beneath all that, I’m really loving what life has to offer right now. Sometimes I just need to remind myself how blessed I am by writing all the negativity because I know how much I’ve got to be thankful for. My mind works weirdly, you see.

Nothing More Than Feelings

Published by Justine

I can feel quite the pressure nowadays. There are many things to do and stuff to think about that I’m feeling quite overwhelmed with everything that’s happening lately. My mom says I can go cry alone if I want to..  which I’ve already done. Small bits and pieces of crying here and there. It’s not like there’s anything negative happening in my life right now, I’m fairly content and happy with day to day stuff it’s just that sometimes you’re just hit with all these things at the same time and you think, “Hold up! Time out!” to yourself.

I won’t let April be a downer. These next two weekends I’m going to go hard. Come to think of it, I haven’t gone drinking in a while.. maybe I miss the intoxicating feeling of alcoholic substance in my system, which is good if done moderately, in my case I don’t, because there is HARDLY any moderately involved. Okay even I’m confusing myself out now.

Does it help that all I wanna do is lean on someone’s shoulder and ask for a cuddle? Wanted: boyfriend.