Last Saturday my girl Novella had a birthday lunch to celebrate her 25th year into this world. The lunch became a very late lunch because the celebrant was not only fashionably late, she was absolutely late 😉 I love you anyway bb. Prior to that Caroline & I decided to grab late brunch at the same time to pick up the red velvet cake we got for N at this lovely place called Convivium Deli in the South.
I think I need a big fat one. Don’t get me wrong. I love Jakarta, I really do. It’s my second home.. it’s where I had a lot of firsts; but it’s been bringing me down. I’m at a crossroads in my life with no idea where to go or what to do with it, I’m almost certain that I don’t really want to be in Jakarta anymore–for now. Of course I’m not ruling out the not ever coming back here but I’m getting really restless. Of course this could just be the frustrated me talking because I’ve had a rough 2 weeks. But if you’re in a place where you’re not growing as an individual, I think you should take things into consideration. Do you want to stay and make things different or do you have another choice of where to go? Right now I have a few choices, go back home to the Philippines which is the most probable choice, or work in cities I would love to live in (Singapore, Melbourne/Perth, Seoul, anywhere in Italy, or with relatives in the States). All it takes is push really. Unfortunately right now I do not have it yet. I’m still finding myself, what I want, attempting to save some money in the process so I can fully determine where I really want to go and what I really want to do and actually have the resources (read: money) to obtain it.
I didn’t really imagine being in your 20s would take such emotional energy to make the right decisions but that’s seriously how I feel right now. I’m generally a positive and happy-go-lucky person but along the way some things change and your perspective shifts, it’s inevitable.
This week has been such a struggle for me, evident from Monday’s post below. I don’t know what it is but I’m guessing it’s probably just PMS or something. I’m feeling extra weak, been getting random stomach pains and bad migraines and headaches (sometimes it feels like a weeklong hangover but I didn’t even drink that much during the weekend) plus I just got my email from monthlyinfo that Tom‘s about to arrive soon, so it’s probably that. It feels like I’m always waking up on the wrong side of the bed and before I sleep I feel extra tired. I’ve been taking my vitamins but I’ve been feeling too lethargic to run this week, I can’t wait til I get back in maximum state of mind so I can get back to running.
Last night the fambam and I went to the airport to send off my dad who’s going back home to Cebu for a while. I don’t know how long until I see him again and I’m such a daddy’s girl when we dropped him off at the airport (we didn’t go in anymore coz it was late) I had this lump on my throat.
And this came from someone who’s been used to living far away from her dad for 18 years. I’m extremely close to him and I’m gonna miss those fun moments and asking him to drive me places because I’m too chicken to drive now. Heh.
It was such a chore to get up this morning, I wasn’t feeling the day and totally dreaded it. I hate it when I wake up with negative vibes but what’s good about it is it doesn’t usually last until the end of the day (unless there’s a strong reason for it to last). Plus I haven’t had a bad Monday in a really long time so waking up that way really left a bad taste in my mouth.
Fortunately for me, our bosses didn’t come in today so my mood immediately got lighter and following SMTOWN New York livetweets gave me some good second-hand fangirling vibes. It’s lunchtime now and while workload has been bittersweet the first half of the day (it’s the good news bad news kind) I’m just thankful I don’t feel so negative anymore. Sometimes you really can’t help what to feel. Being a Gemini, I can attest to that.
Here are some photos I took during the weekend, which was pretty eventful that I didn’t really get sleep until Sunday afternoon. totes love my new cameruhh!
If my weekend had to be described in tags, it would consist of: food, beer, soju, chicken, karaoke, sleepover, buffet, late nights, brunch, traffic, buffet, birthday, party, formal dinner, mexican bar, mojitos, margartitas, live band, singing, fangirling, samgyeopsal, korean bbq.
I just got back home after buying a new camera, the Nikon Coolpix P300. I’ve been wanting a compact camera with almost SLR-like capabilities and have been eyeing the Canon S95 for the longest time.. until I saw the P300 a few weeks ago. It has everything I need in a camera, with Full HD video recording. I get really lazy lugging around the DSLR and wanted to find an alternative. I don’t mind not having RAW because the SLR does that and this price tag fit just right in my budget as opposed to the S95 or the upcoming S100 (before going extremely broke). I’ve also been wanting to find a good compact camera to bring to a concert next month, a concert that doesn’t allow and professional cameras whatsoever.
While in the car on the way home I did some random shots and tested its low light capabilities and boy was I impressed. My previous camera, the Canon IXUS 80 sucked so bad when it came to low light situations that’s why this one pretty much wow-ed me. No flash was used at all and these photos are not edited in any way. I can’t wait to be able to use it in full force!
