I can feel quite the pressure nowadays. There are many things to do and stuff to think about that I’m feeling quite overwhelmed with everything that’s happening lately. My mom says I can go cry alone if I want to..  which I’ve already done. Small bits and pieces of crying here and there. It’s not like there’s anything negative happening in my life right now, I’m fairly content and happy with day to day stuff it’s just that sometimes you’re just hit with all these things at the same time and you think, “Hold up! Time out!” to yourself. I won’t let April be a downer. These next two weekends I’m going to go hard. Come to think of it, I haven’t gone drinking in a while.. maybe I miss the intoxicating feeling of alcoholic substance in my system, which is good if done moderately, in my case I don’t, because there is HARDLY any moderately involved. Okay even I’m confusing myself out now. Does it help that all I wanna do is lean on …

Sorry it’s been so long since I last wrote here! A lot of things have happened in my life ever since my last entry and the problem is of course, where to start? As of now I’m back in the Philippines. It wasn’t an easy decision to make by any means, but I’m glad I did it (I hope to say the same in the future!). I left Jakarta on the 9th of February so everything was sort of very much a rollercoaster prior to that, packing my stuff, saying goodbye to friends and family, shopping for new stuff, and making room for the future in my thoughts. The reason why I moved back is because I’ve been trying to find a way to get away from Jakarta. As I’ve said in my previous posts, it will always be home to me and I have unending love for it, but you can’t stick with something that’s bringing you down. Absence makes the heart grow fonder, as they say. I felt like I had no room …